[1:45 AM] I can’t sleep. I didn’t take sleeping pills. After dinner, I was okay but gradually started feeling sick. I’m not sure if I’ll throw up. I probably should. I just want to sleep.
[1:55 AM] It’s done, using the same technique as before—what I call SIV (self-imposed vomit). I feel much better now.
[2:04 AM] I’m frustrated, maybe because I haven’t lost any weight. It’s day 50. In 10 days, it’ll be 2 freaking months on Ozempic. I was supposed to be 85 kg, and WTF! I’m still stuck at 90 kg. How much am I eating for Ozempic to fail? Think about it—compared to the old days, I’m eating way less. But since I’m back in India and busy with personal stuff, my physical activity is limited. Whatever it is, I need to make changes to lose at least 1 more kg in 10 days. Maybe it’s too ambitious given how slowly I’m losing weight, but it’s definitely achievable.
[12:45 PM] I went to bed around 3:15, woke up at 4:00, and finally slept after 5:00. Got up at 9:20. Still not feeling fresh, but my mind was racing. So much work that could’ve been done if… anyway! I need to get it done now.
[23:25 PM] I’ve felt uncomfortable all day. Skipped lunch but had a sandwich. Breakfast was also a sandwich. Dinner was roti, lauki ki sabji, dahi, and fresh green chili (which I must have with every meal in India). It’s been a weird day—feeling a little sad, a little okay, and a little not okay. Planning to take a sleeping pill and hope to recover from whatever this is.
