Today marks the 71st day, and my weight is holding at 87.5 kg. Since being in India, I haven’t been losing much weight. My physical activity is limited, and my calorie intake has increased significantly. It’s been a lot of carbs—too many carbs—and far less protein than I need. I have one more injection of Ozempic left, and after that, nothing. From here, I know I need to return to fasting, even though the side effects hit me hard. It all comes back to the fundamentals. This journey is no longer just about not losing weight; it’s about mental health too. A healthy mind makes healthy decisions.
My cravings for deep-fried food have settled, probably because I’ve been having snacks almost every evening. I’ve gotten used to having tea in the mornings, and occasionally, I feel the urge for evening tea as well. Tea itself isn’t high in calories, but it contains sugar, which I don’t normally consume.
In a nutshell, this challenge has a simple solution, but it requires a strong mental game. Soon, I’ll be out of Ozempic, and without its assistance in controlling my insulin, I know the hunger will return, and with it, the risk of gaining weight. This will be a challenge.
It’s frustrating to think about how things “might” turn out, based on my past patterns. There is a success story in here somewhere, but I’ve often ended up gaining weight again due to insulin resistance, alcohol consumption, and poor food choices after drinking. Insulin resistance stems from the choices I’ve made—there’s no denying that. It’s all connected to the unseen pressures and tension in life. When you face uncertainties for an extended period, it strips away control, leading to anxiety, and the whole thing becomes a domino effect.
But I am a better version of myself now. Things won’t have such a dramatic impact this time. My mind and body might try to fight back to either gain weight or stay where I am, but whatever happens, it will be fine.
